I Miss My Horse

I told a friend, the other day, that I missed my horse.

Being at college that statement is not a very surprising one. A lot of students around here state that they miss their pets.

My friend smiled at me and told me that break is coming up, and that means I should get to see her soon!

I nodded.

She then added knowingly, "That's not the horse you were referring to, was it?"

She was right.

I do miss Lady. I have not spent nearly as much time at home with my pony as I would like. I miss her sassy glares and her tolerance of my presence. I like to imagine she misses me as well. Though its far more likely she just misses the treats I bring...

But when I stated I missed my horse. Well.

Mya.

Honestly this is a relatively new emotion. You can imagine for awhile the thing I felt when I thought of her was sadness mixed with pain.

Grief.

But I was also relieved that she was no longer suffering. It is so hard to watch your pet suffer.

But now, I feel like those feelings have started to diminish.

Now I just miss her.

I walk through a tack store and I end up saying things like, "Oh hey! Mya's loves those brand of treats! I should get a bag," or "That color would look great on Mya." I miss spoiling her.

Mya was truly "my" horse. Perhaps it is the connection we have with our first horse, or perhaps she was just truly special. But I miss that connection. With Mya sometimes it felt like we had almost a telepathic connection. In all reality we were just in tune with the way each other worked and moved.

She was truly my horse.

And I miss that.

I'm not saying she didn't have her flaws. She did. I had mine too. I regret not doing so many things with her. If I let myself I would just beat myself up in side about so much of that. But the past is the past and I cannot change it. For all our flaws, I think the few short years we spent together were remarkable. She taught me so much. I honestly due believe she made me a better person. I thank her for that. She was a gift to me. She was a beautiful gift.

Sorry if this post was horribly depressing. I was just feeling very nostalgic! I'm hoping to write up another post very soon to let you all know how Lady is doing. I ordered her a new winter blanket the other day which I am dying to try on her. If she ends up looking as adorable (and slightly annoyed) as I think she will, it should make for a great picture!